On the nature of the Sacrament

Well, the title of this is mainly to make me sound smart... because I don't really think it needs to be discusses since it is such an obvious topic anyway.

However, He is risen! happy Easter to everyone! Which is just one, me, since only I read my blog.

Lately my life has been rather topsy turvy as one might say. I am not sure why it is so but I just feel like I have been topsy turvy. It may be due to my many run ins with the law... They just don't understand that I have to somehow procure funds more my political party! Is some bank's money really more important than the glory the Petersen Party would bring to America???

Well anyway, enough of that, onto another topic. I have begun writing a song... it is a sad story song, I don't want to give to much away but I think it is amazing. Though, I am overly self confident and I would say that regardless of the quality of the song.

I sometimes feel like I am just free associating when I am blogging and throwing random tid bits in everywhere... I never read them as it goes against my code so I can't be sure...

I wonder if that means I have add?? Or maybe I just have a lot of brain power and many thought float in my head at one time, faster than I can talk or write. There is that confidence again... hmmmm

Anyway, I am going to go listen to Moulin Rouge now, which is possibly my favorite movie at this point in my life... I don't know why though I suspect it is because I relate with Ewan Mcgreggor so much. I just really feel for him and it makes me emotional... not a lot of movies do that for me... anyway I will talk to myself later...

Morality

So, once again, I sit on campus bored and with nothing to do except study.

Which I refuse to do.

Instead I have decided to once again write a blog which basically consists of whatever is on the top of my mind and which no one will ever see.

But it passes the time and gives my hands something to do.

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about morality lately. Ethics as well. Big issues which for some unknown reason are hard to address. I think it is because of guilt, guilt makes people feel bad so they avoid thinking about it so that they can avoid feeling bad. Natural human response I suppose, though conscience and guilt are also human responses... so these things must be combating, unless the former isn't really a natural response and is something that is learned.

I guess I should think about childhood then, to see if it is something that would be learned. At least for me, when I was a child, guilt would often times make me fess up in order to get rid of the guilt. So maybe it is more natural to face up to the consequences to get rid of guilt than to avoid the situation altogther... or maybe I was just a weird kid.

Well, assuming that I am the norm and most people are this way, at what point do we learn avoidance? Is it after punishment that we become afraid of punishment? Is the lessening of guilt not as strong a force as threat of discipline? Of course this varies from person to person, though, depending on the person it seems like an awful lot of people i know seek avoidance at this point in their life.

If the majority of people seek to hide their crimes, then their must be some catalyst that is experienced to create this urge - if the above is all true. And if this urge stretches across so many people, it must be a restricted list of events that can cause this... otherwise this urge would vary greatly among people. So something that all people go through. I suppose the opposite could be true as well, maybe their are many many events that can cause this change from nature which makes it unavoidable. Unless your character can survive this onslaught...

Well I am going to class now.